.Tuesday, January 24, 2006 ' 3:15 PM Y
What's wrong with the new year? So many things aren't going smoothly and everyone's running into problems of some kind. Take me for example. I've been trapped in my own misery so long that I failed to consider the feelings of others. Man... I'm back at this bad point of mine again and I'm really sorry. To Qr, my one and only Jie, I really don't know what I can do to help you. I'm sorry that I've also played a part in causing your hurt, that I haven't really noticed until you actually blogged it out. I've preached of listening with the heart, but I haven't done anything about it. I don't know what to say or do to lessen the pain, but I'll always be here as a listening ear or a crying shoulder should you need me. And you don't have to try and be the perfect girlfriend or the perfect best friend. You just have to be yourself. That's what we all want. You once asked why I just couldn't open up to you. Perhaps its just that I don't want to burden you, perhaps its just that I don't know how to open my mouth, perhaps it is for these same reasons that you are keeping all your unhappiness to yourself. We once promised each other to be completely open and honest about our feelings, and we've both broken our promise. At least, I know I have. I don't dare to say the same for you, but that's jsut how I feel. Along our journey, we've both met with accidents. Along the road, our communication system has once again met with problems. Hopefully everything's not too late. Hopefully, we can repair part, if not all of it. My dear sis, I'm not saying that you have to turn to me all the time, because its not something you're obliged to you. But I just hope for you to talk to someone, a real huamn being. No matter how ridiculous or stupid a thing it may be, at least share. Its called the spirit of sharing wonderful stuff and distributing the lousy parts. I can't promise that I'll be able to do the same as I've preached but I'm willing to try. To find the door of my little world and unlock it. To learn to open up and let the light flow in. I just hope we can learn together.
