.Monday, July 16, 2007 ' 10:45 AM Y
I got back the results for my BSTA test. Emotions running through me right now consists of shock and disappointment and a hinge of surprise. Because I miracally scored a 11/100. I totally expected it to be a big fat ZERO. That's why I'm surprised. Over the fact that I even managed to score any marks at all. Disappointment because I know I'm the only one in class who did this badly. Disappointed in myself for not studying hard enough, for not being clever or intelligent enough to understand this kind of mathematical stuff as easily as everyone else. I won't exactly call myself stupid, but sometimes I really wish that I am better at Maths and Sciences. Maybe then, I wouldn't be having such a hard time over my studies. I won't grumble and complain and go all "emo" about this test lah. Do feel a little frustrated with myself though. I want to cry man... But its okay lah... I guess I'll just have to mug my guts out and give my best shot at the retest. Even though no matter how well I do its just going to be either Pass or Fail, if I can do well, it also means that I'm 60% prepared for the end-of-semester exam. Please wish my luck. Anyone volunteers to be my tutor?