.Friday, November 30, 2007 ' 11:31 AM Y
So did not feel like coming for lecture today. Was even tempted to just tell my project mates that I'm not feeling well and just skip project consultation as well. But here I am forcing myself to do what I'm supposed to do. Urgh. Feeling quite depressed these few days. I suppose its the stress from the many projects crushing down on us. I just can't wait to complete my 3 years of polytechnic education and then escape somewhere else for a break. In some way, I suppose I'm being very similar to QR. But there's no way I can force myself to hide behind a false identity. The thing is, honesty is not something everyone can accept. Its okay when I try to be honest with myself, but when I try to be honest with my views, many people think I'm just being a fucking bitch. And it just makes me even more depressed. In some way, I've lost all that I ever held close to my heart, especially in terms of friendship. Take away Dear from me, and I'm probably left with no one. And yes, I'm afraid. Very afraid. But what else can I do? Everyone is busy with their own lives. And that is what I have to do. Busy myself too. All this depression must have been caused by slacking for too long. And it still has to last for another 3 weeks. Lord help me. I will NOT break down. Repeat that a zillion times. And I should probably stop putting hope in too many things as well. Life is short. I need to stay happy. Repeat that another zillion times.Yea, I'm really happy. *Pui*
