.Tuesday, January 08, 2008 ' 11:57 PM Y
Today was another upsetting day. As much as I tried to calm myself, my heartbeat was irregular for 3 whole hours. The thought of food made me sick and no matter how I tried, I couldn't sleep. Thank goodness its all going to be over tomorrow. If this continues on, I think I might just die from a heart attack. That is, if I manage to die before I become mental. Okay... Enough of negative thoughts. I think all stress is seriously getting to me. And in all honesty, I care more about the projects more than I care about anything else, and that includes relationship matters. So lost, so worried, so burdened. And not just me. If only I could do something to alleviate your pain. If only you would allow me to stay by you.If only we could put aside our past grudges, I'd have so much to tell you. 天啊！人世间为什么要有那么多的烦恼和不开心啊？我就快要疯掉了！！！Its weird how all these negatvie things are all happening to me and the people around me all at the same time. Sometimes discoveries may not be blessings. I keep trying to put off the inevitable, thinking that maybe, things don't have to be this way. But now I realise that what has to be done has to be done. And this time, nothing shall waver my decision, because if I do not fight for myself, no one else will. The worse thing a person can do is to cross a scorpion. Scorpions are tough creatures who do not die easily, and I am a proud to be a true,blue scorpion. I will never let them get to me ever again.
