.Monday, February 11, 2008 ' 1:00 AM Y
Although there are still 11 days to go before CNY is officially over, I suppose most of us are already back to school or work by tomorrow. For me, hard core revision officially starts tomorrow and won't stop until after 21st Feb. Long way to go. CNY updates first. Second day afternoon was spent with Dear, watching Kungfu Dunk. I ended up not going to my 4th aunt's house, but do I care? No. Because its just the same old faces from the first day, and same old conversation. As I grow older, I realised that CNY is just a polite gathering of all my relatives due to the "tradition" of reunion. I mean, come on! During the rest of the 360 days, we people don't even contact each other. No sms-es, no phone calls, no meet-ups, except for the occasional blue moon. And its not as though Singapore is that big. Which makes all that cheerful chattering and handshakes during CNY sound even more fake. Anyway, back to updates. Haha. Dinner on the second day was at my 5th aunt's house (realise that there's an order from 2nd aunt to 5th aunt?). Steamboat again. And I didn't have much appetite either. Conversation was basically auntie's gossip and listening to my sister prattle on and on about how successful she's going to be in 3 years' time. And that was why I fell asleep after dinner, woke up when they started gossiping and well avoided the living room until it was time to go home. Standing around and watching my dad play mahjong was more entertaining. The 3rd day, which was yesterday, was spent with QR and gang. First stop was BC's house, where I arrived 1 hour late, and then it was on to QR's house. Yummy lunch, what with KFC, Pizza Hut, cocktails and sinful but delicious bacon-wrapped baby sausages. Played a few rounds of BlackJack and won a meager 50 cents. Haha. 3rd stop was at JK's house, where we played the "猫抓老鼠" game from the Taiwan CNY game show. Pretty lame, but I had fun. Last stop was Van's house. Dinner was there too. Played another few rounds of BlackJack and lost a few dollars. Haha. And because it was too late, they didn't come over to my house. Long day it was. And just when I was looking forward to going home and having a nice shower, my mom called to say that we would be visiting my father's friend's house at Kembangan. Sighs. It was already 10pm okay... God knows why I was so thirsty, but I drank 3 packets of mixed berries juice at my Uncle SP's house. Again, the party was split into 2 groups; the gossiping aunties, and the gossiping uncles. Or should I say, the uncles listening to my sister preach about how successful she is going to be in 3 years' time. Man... doesn't she ever get sick of repeating the same things over and over? What was I doing? Nothing. Sat there and listened to the aunties gossip. Then switched channel and went to listen to my sister prattle. Then switched back and forth again. Basically, I was B-O-R-E-D. And worse. There wasn't even any angbao to look forward. If time is precious, I just lost 3 hours yesterday doing nothing. Today. Went up to Dear's house in the afternoon, then went to the temple with my family, then on to my 8th aunt's house and then to North Point to meet Dear for a movie. Haha. I blasted close to 40 bucks of cab fare. And spent $100 on a pair of Nike shoes. My heart still hurts okay. And my wallet is still bleeding. Sorry for the long entry and lack of photos. My blog is probably one the most boring ones that exist, but if I'm fine with that fact, who dares to say more? I don't know why, but this year's CNY didn't carry much excitement for me. 90% of the time, I was bored by everything around me. Maybe its because the knowledge that exams start in a week, or maybe its because there just isn't anything to get excited over. I don't know. Towards the end of yesterday, I got a little moody and started withdrawing myself again. The problem with me is that I want too much from life, and from people around me. I know, but I keep forgetting, that everyone and everything is different now, and because of that forgetfulness, it always causes me disappointments and hurts. I should have become immune to all this by now, but somehow I'm still affected. I don't even know whether to be angry at myself or to feel sorry for myself. Time to get to bed. Considering getting back into the habit of diary writing and just posting mundane stuff on my blog. But then there's the danger of my mom's prying. Oh fuck. Sleep first, decide later. Goodnight.
