.Thursday, February 21, 2008 ' 2:32 PM Y
My 200th post, and not a good one either. I just spent the whole of last night mugging for MAEC and still, I managed not to do well for my paper. I only did passably okay. Sighs... And then on the bus on the way to tuition at Sengkang, my class advisor called to ask me about some handphone-ringing-during-exam incident on Monday. I don't fucking know anything about it except that yes it rang during the exam! Stop nagging non-stop! To make things worse, my student calls to postpone the lesson to tomorrow just when I've reached Sengkang. OMFG. I just wasted 1 and a half hours making the journey and now you tell me! FINE. And THEN I had to oversleep on the bus and miss my stop, alighting at some ulu factory place. 5 bucks to cab home. So here I am now venting all my tired frustration on my blog. There's something else that makes me feel even more depressed, and that I cannot say. I'm not emotionalising, but seriously, how fucking dumb can I continue to get? When a kid falls, the pain tells him that falling aint fun and he smartens up. But stupidly, people like continue to fall and fall and fall. Over and over again. All in the name of HOPE. Whether that whole shit about Pandora's box is true or not, HOPE IS NOT NECCESSARILY A GOOD THING. It just causes people to feel even more disappointed. Full-stop. I seriously need some gadget or something to brainwash myself until I forget all this crappy stuff. They say humans are also animals, but how come the REAL animals don't have to go through this sort of shit? Fuck you, God, whoever you are. If I've offended anyone or anything in this post, then too bad, I'm not sorry. You chose to think this post was directed at you but it wasn't. So fuck off. Alright. I should stop using the F word in my blog. And now, off to bed. May the nightmares elude me.
