.Sunday, August 02, 2009 ' 10:37 PM Y
Life is a journey that's full of twists and turns.
I think I'm at the point in life where I'm very sick and tired of everything. I just want to stop and take a breather; just want to be alone for a while to sort out my thoughts and feelings. Right now, I really don't have the energy to bother about anything or anyone. Call me selfish or whatever you want, but I think i deserve some time to myself every once in a while. Other than work and gym, I honestly can't drag up the energy to be enthusiastic about anything else. I've even put off revamping my own room to the next 2 weekends.
I know whatever is wrong with me now isn't a good thing at all. I know shutting myself in and everyone else out is bad for my mental health. I'm not depressed or being "emo", but I'm just very "sian" about everything right now. Maybe its because I've been seeing my relatives too much for this past week; maybe its because too many things have been going on lately. I'm VERY tired. Starting to get very short-tempered again. Any single tiny thing can set me off and make me feel very pissed off, and I'm trying my best to change that. I guess I just need to be alone to sort myself out for now.
I don't wish for anyone to worry about me; I'm not trying to seek attention and I really couldn't be bothered if people get sick of me and leave me. I just don't have the mood to bother about all these things. I'm sorry to everyone who gets affected by my mood, which is why I'm not trying to socialise with friends, because I don't want to affect their moods as well. Please pardon me for the sudden "whatever-you-want-to-call-it" attitude.