.Monday, December 28, 2009 ' 10:31 PM Y
Okay I'm FINALLY gonna start doing my EOY. No idea why I'm so obsessed with it, but I guess its going to be useful in future when I read back and discover the things I did in the span of one year. Be prepared for a SUPER DUPER long entry today.
So to start...
In January, I finally started my CAT after an entire year of break from studying. Back then I was still at Zone X with all the cool peeps like Terry, Chu Bin, Jinwen, and so many others. It feels like such a long long time ago that I'm finding it hard that its actually less than a year ago! This was also the time when Dear and I started taking an avid interest in Taiko and spent a lot of time hanging out with Yuu and company. Haha~
February was relatively boring, except that I quit Zone X (fucked-up management), slacked around for a few weeks, during which I spent a lot of time with the aunties, playing mah-jong and all. Its weird how distant we are nowadays. Sad too. =( Its also too bad that I had to quit AFTER CNY. After putting up with those "oh-you-work-in-an-arcade" snide comments and side glances from my relatives during CNY. But the upside is, Valentine's Day made my pockets bulge happily. Also spent a huge portion of the month camping in A.M.K's McDonald's with Yuu, Dear, Xiaohui and Xiuhui doing nothing but chatting and laughing our asses off at all the randomest things.
I truly can't remember much of what I did in March. Was I jobless?!??! But no eh, I had tuition. What then? Damn! My memory is failing me badly. But I remember doing nothing very constructive for that month, because Dear kept nagging at me for being so free and partly also 'cause he was jealous of my freedom. Mwahahaha~!
Landed a part-time stint at Parc Lumiere as a showroom assistant in April. I still remember getting quite a few emails and MSN messages asking me about the availability of the units even though my job was just some insignificant assistant. Even though I only worked for 2 weeks, it was really fun, especially the first few busy and tiring days. Then the units sold out too damn quick and we got put out of the job which was actually supposed to last about a month or so. And I still continued to hang out with them Zone X peeps till the wee hours even though I had to report to work in the mornings. xD
May is a HUGE turning point in my life, because that's the point of time when I landed my current job at Interwell. I will never forget the very day that I got the call from the agent. It was my FIRST day of work at Robinson's for the pre-GSS period and during lunch time, I got a call from Diana, asking me to turn up for an interview at 11am the next day. Right after hanging up, I was so happy that I was literally jumping around. Until my right knee buckled under me and I couldn't stand up for quite a few minutes. And guess what? It happened right in the middle of Centrepoint's food court. I think it was a sprain, but a rather nasty one, because up till today, I'm still suffering the after effects. To cut a long story short, I got the job at Interwell, quit Robinson's and settled in to office life.
JUNE. My first month at a new job and I had to take leave for my appointment at KK and also for TKDJ's chalet. I remember having quite a hard time settling in, because there were just so many new things to learn, and I also had to adjust to waking up at 7am and sleeping by 12am. Something that I hadn't done since I graduated from Dunman. Crystal was very generous in teaching me all the ropes, but sometimes, I could feel her impatience and my self-confidence just plummeted down and down.
July rolled around damned fast and I got used to office lifestyle. Its like, all of a sudden, WHAT? I've been here for 2 months already?!?! And then there were the problems between Dear and I, and finally, the month concluded with the passing away of my paternal grandmother. I remember being at the funeral and hating all the fake-ness I was witnessing from my relatives. I still do. Hate the fake-ness, I mean.
Because of that, the first 2 weeks of August had me moving around in zombie mode. Damn shagged all the time, for no apparent reason, but Dear and I also made up. Took part in the 1st ever Taiko competition jointly organised by Arcadia and TKDJ, and also chiong-ed all 4 books of Romance of the Three Kingdoms. I know that certain post that I put up criticizing the way the competition was judged put some serious tear on the friendship between Yuu and me, but I strongly believe that I should stop being the friend whose always too timid to speak out. I no longer want to be the party who silently swallows all the unhappiness in the hopes that ignoring the problem will make it go away. Because things just don't work that way.
I had a stressful month in September, mainly because of our very unstable finances. Because of that, I kept venting my frustrations out on Dear (actually I still do lah, xD), who somehow managed to put up with all my nonsense. Haha.
Attended William's wedding dinner in October. Somehow everyone seemed to be getting married during that month because David & Vincent were both complaining over the number of ang paos they had to give that month. Haha. Went to Sentosa with some of the TKDJ peeps and burnt my face chao-ta. Dinner was some disastrous affair at Bounce; and I returned to office the next week to everyone asking about my face. So paiseh lah...
Last month-November, I turned 19. Nothing special to be happy or upset about. Its just another year. Peggy and Crystal got me book vouchers for my presents while Yuu and the rest were too busy with exams and their own stuffs to remember my birthday. Somehow, my relationship with her and TKDJ peeps just went downhill from there. But that aside, I had an entire week of peace when my family went off to Chiangmai to visit some relative's wedding dinner. I purposely wiggled out of that because I just didn't want to spend a week listening to my sister bragging to my relatives. Spent most of that one week at Dear's house and almost got addicted to waking up beside him each morning. Haha. Towards the end of the month, I got a new desktop and Dear also finally got his PS3~
In the blink of an eye, December is here and just like that, an entire year has gone past and in less than a week, it'll be the year of 2010! I'm not going to go into details of what I've been doing this past month because you can just scroll down and read the more recent entries.
To sum up 2009, there's been a lot of changes to my life. From "just some teenager working part-time in an arcade" to a full-time working adult. Okay fine. Maybe not that adult, but still~
Its hard to believe, really, that I've been with my company for 7 months already. It feels just like yesterday that I entered the office for the very first time. I know in the start William didn't like me very much because of some reason, but I'm glad that's over now. There are probably unspoken politics in the office; things that individuals know but will rather die than say them out loud,but I'm happy to say that the working relationship between me and my colleagues is at the very least, amicable.
Over the months, I've really learnt a lot of things, both work-related and outside of work. One of the most important things though, is that I now can truly say that I've managed to stop being so sensitive about how people feel towards me. I cannot make the whole world like me, but I can love myself, and by loving myself, I can make myself "un-touchable" by the unkind thoughts people think of me.
Another thing I wanna mention is that I'm actually kinda glad that Dear and I had that huge blowout way back in July. Because nowadays, I can actually feel that he loves me even more than he used to. Not trying to be mushy or something, but its true. From the way he gives in more regularly to me, to the way he's been very patient with me and my mood swings and my willfulness. ♥
I don't know what went wrong in the link between me and TKDJ. Maybe its was my problem, maybe it was theirs. But I'm not really that bothered to go in-depth because I'm really very tired of all this nonsense. No matter anyways, I've been visiting the forum very very seldom nowadays and I don't Taiko that much either. Mainly because the novelty has worn off, and also because I don't see the point in being so obsessed with it, like so many of the TKDJ peeps still are.
No I'm not saying all this because I'm angry or anything. I'm just making a statement, that's all. Ironically, I'd like to quote Yuu in that life is more than taiko; more than making it a must to be a Iluma every single week or die of Taiko withdrawal syndromes.
In about 3 days, the new year will come about, and everything of 2009 will be nothing but memories, be them good or bad. My resolutions for 2010 are simple: I just wanna stay happy, start having some savings, make a trip to Taiwan (changeable to other places depending on my mood), and have the year pass uneventfully. Hopefully when I'm doing my EOY for 2010, I'll still be at Interwell, my pay will be slightly higher, and I'll have completed my CAT. Sounds like a lot to ask for, but if you actually notice, all those are achievable. Except maybe for the uneventful part.
I can't control what's going to happen in the future, neither am I going to dwell on the unhappiness of the past. I have enough sweet memories to last me through my downs at present and I'm going to work hard, stay strong and create even better memories for 2010.
I probably won't be blogging again until after the first week of 2010 because I'll be spending the weekend at Dear's place. Happy New Year in advance to everyone and may all your dreams come true! =)
Last post of the year in my favourite colour~! HAHA! I've spent 2 hours on this post; I'm shagged and I want my bed! Goodnight 2009!~