.Tuesday, April 16, 2013 ' 1:14 PM Y
Its the 3rd week since the breakup, but yesterday night I truly died.
All this while I kept hoping against hope that he would come to love me again. That he would realise that I'm truly the one for him. I put myself through a roller-coaster of emotions but I kept believing that we would be together.
But yesterday night he told me that he really couldn't find back the love.
I can't describe the amount of pain I felt. I only know that I cried and cried for many hours. I heard animal sounds coming from within me but I couldn't stop myself. I couldn't breathe, but the tears still came. I have never felt this degree of pain, nor have I ever cried to this extent.
And yet this morning when I woke up, I knew I still love him.
What is wrong with me?
I really have no idea how I am going to walk out of all this pain. I don't know how much time it will take to heal my heart. Heck, I can't even feel my heart anymore. All I can feel is this deep and hollow emptiness somewhere within me. Even now, the tears still threaten to fall whenever I think of him.
Can anybody tell me what I have to do to stop the pain? Its really draining everything I have out of me and I don't have the strength to move. I know all the people who care are also tired of me and I'm really sorry, but I need a little more time to pull myself out.
My world is really black now. I can't die, yet I can't live. Its a torture that I really don't know what I ever did to deserve. I'm nothing left but a walking zombie. Please just let me be taken away to a better place.
